How can everything be a big, stupid joke, but so incredibly fucking meaningful and heartbreaking at the same time?
A building wave of unexpected emotion filled my chest, threatening to explode and destroy me from the inside out. I didn’t understand where these feelings were coming from. Why me? Why now? I asked myself as I felt myself spinning, spiraling down into what I was sure was going to be a dark hole of depression. The emotions built and bubbled and… I burped.
The wave was gone. I felt fine…
oh. never mind.
but then i stop crying because why waste my life crying over stupid people?
I woke up one day and the floor wasn’t there…The way we think about everything is completely wrong. Even time is an illusion. It’s nothing. It’s doesn’t exist. You think it does, but it doesn’t. We aren’t even here. We’re a 3D holographic projection of a fixed point of high density information located far off in what we think of as deep space. That headspace… I got caught there. I couldn’t function.
- Gray Cortright